LIGHT OF THE WORLD

Jeremiah 45:5

What do I seek? The gift? Great things for myself? I must set my heart right with God, and be wanting God and only Him, not His gift. Let You be my only wish. 

Can’t tell if I really followed what I think God was telling me to do, or if I got fooled by myself or Satan to do what I selfishly wanted to do and think that it was His plan for me.

I don’t know what to do anymore… but pray.

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work.

[2 Corinthians 9:8]

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So true~

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Either I have gotten more comfortable and confident in sharing my opinion and scolding/giving advice when someone makes mistakes and don’t know about it, or I got worse at being in self-control and patient.

first morning qt in the longest time. first qt without any distraction in the longest time. this was what I just needed in the busiest moment of my life. My God is good. [Matthew 7]

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I am always busy with so much to do for everything. If I finish up one thing, two new things come up, and so on. And it just got me thinking and I came up with few possible reasons why that is..

1.Procrastination. That’s one of the questions I get when I tell people I have so much to do. We just assume that someone was procrastinating when they are stressed or have a lot to do simultaneously. I cannot say I never procrastinate, but I don’t think that is the problem because I am always working on something.. I can probably improve my priorities though.

2. I have too much on my plate. I am aware that I tend to take a lot of responsibilities and tasks - a little bit more than enough. By the end, I often get burnt out and crash but get everything done somehow. SomehowI survive. I think that “somehow”is God helping me get through it because I ask myself “how did I do that all really?” and know I couldn’t have done it all alone.

3. God is trying to teach/tell/show me something.  Whether I made my life harder or life threw a box of lemons at me, there has been some-what repetition in last couple years. I wonder if I’m missing the message He is trying to deliver. Or maybe He is preparing me for something in the future. I don’t know.

I’ve had that question for a while but what made me really think about it right now is because of the lack of motivationto do what I’m supposed to do right now. All the stuff for AIAS and Dept of Architecture, school, job, personal, etc. It’s not that I don’t want to do them. I want to, but I just have no motivation. And then I started thinking.. “Man, I really need to find something that can motivate me to do all this stuff.” Still struggling to find that motivator, but I will try to for a few hours now that I got this out of my mind.

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I hate emails. I get rid of 50 emails, 75 more emails show up the next day. I just wanted one week of freedom from school and event planning and everything, just for myself. I wouldn’t mind if the Internet crashes right now.

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when the very personal thing is out of my hand, when it is the most essential time to wholly trust in Him faithfully, I find it the most difficult thing to do. Because I can’t do anything about it, I get frustrated and angry, which does not help the situation. I am pretty sure it’s a way of Satan getting at me and I’m letting him have his way, unfortunately…

“The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the spirit.”

- John 3:8

Holy Spirit is like a wind… While you engage in discipline, He throws the boat - your life - to the storm, so He can shape your boat to be like Jesus Christ. He will blow you into the storm over and over, until you finally get it. Until you get that Jesus is all you need.

Let the wind, the Holy Spirit, guide me.

My body just strongly revolts to pull all nighters nowadays. I just can’t do it! I might have to tonight, but I don’t want to. even if that means I might not finish what I gotta do… Oh man I’m slacking.. getting weak:\

I have this ambitious visions and passions for architecture community. I’m still figuring out whether it is coming from my own desire, or from God. It could be both. If so, I am trying to “balance it out”, so that it becomes all His desire, His vision, His will, and less of me.

As of now, I’m not ready to share these to the public. I hinted out some of it to others in extremely stealthy way, but I’m afraid that it is too ambitious for me, that I might not make it after letting others know.

But anyways, I do have these ambitious visions and things I want to do, and places I want to go. And I am going to try to do them, and just see what happens. Of course I hope it works out, but I don’t have any confident or assurance that I will get them. I’m leaving it all up to God, once I take initiation.

So far, He said yes to some of the visions I saw, no to some others. He gave me another vision from the answers I have received. Whether it is a yes or no, it is a win-win situation because it is a learning process. Either way was meant for the best for me and I believe that. For the ones coming up, I pray that my prayer won’t be: “God, please let me have this. Please let this happen,” but “Lord, thy will be done. You own my life.” I will be disappointed if no is the answer but I will learn to understand why it was a no. Maybe I just have to try again. Maybe I’ll learn a lesson from tenth time and consider other paths. I don’t know.

All these deadlines are coming up, and my body is reaching the limit as stress and tension increases. But for God, I shall not give up.

Let us not grow weary of doing good,

or in due season we will reap,

if we do not give up.

- Galatians 6:9